Hi I'm back.

Actually have been since Monday, but let me tell you about my CNY first.

GUESS WHO GOT FOOD POISONING??????

No prizes. Yours truly didn't get to eat reunion dinner, didn't get to go Polaroid shopping... BADABOOM.

The flight home was truly hell.

In 4 days, I was sick a grand total of EIGHTEEN times.

Yippee meeeee!

Life's a fucking bitch.

Only 4 more hours before we leave for Hong Kong!

Okay I just felt like putting the picture of Mych, Momo and I in Korea last Feb up there. It feels kinda travel-ish.

Am going to play some mindless pc game on F's laptop now, mua ha ha ha.

x

"Suddenly I feel in need of a little reassurance. For a few moments I can't spot him, and although I keep wearing my confident smile, I feel a ridiculous panic rising inside me, like a child realizing she's been left behind at school; that everyone else has been collected but her.

Until suddenly I saw him. Standing behind a pillar towards the back, tall and dark and solid, his eyes fixed on mine. Looking at me and no one else. And as I gaze back at him, I feel restored.

I've been collected too; it's ok."

I realized that lots of people blogged about the New Year, and resolutions yadda yadda. And because I am a Singaporean and Singaporeans are best known for their mob instinct, I shall be patriotic and jump on the bandwagon.

A year ago, I was making a choice between poly and jc. It was an easy one, because after four years of straitjacket hell I wanted freedom. I wanted to belong. I didn't want to go somewhere where I would stick out like a sore thumb, be looked down upon and unintentionally different. So ignorant and naive, my first choice went to Mass Comm at Ngee Ann Poly.

You would have thought that one year later, I would have accumalized to poly life and its education environment. Nopeeeee. I'm still here, feeling as rejected, lonely, and unhappily different as I did in RV long ago. If I compare then and now, I would really have preferred then.

What I have come to realized is that, due to MC (the irony of its abbreviation)'s high cut off point, lots of you know, smart (most of the time nerdy, power-hungry but not neccessarily so) people get in. Smart, undeterred people. So what used to be an image of 'coolness', arty farty-ness plus street smart is now just... frankly, an older RV.

If you've been in RV you'll know what I'm talking about.

When I complain to F about how my life is a coalface now he listens, cock his head to the side, and then start to berate me.

"Do you know how many people wants to go into your course in your school?"

Sometimes I see things from his perspective. I see myself as being lucky, and then promptly resolve to blend in with school life. Sometimes, when the going gets really tough, I go sod it, i'm better off studying somewhere else.

17 years old and stuck in a rut.

If I could, I want to pursue foundation then a degree in the States. Not Australia, where everyone can go but some people brag about it to death. But I've already wasted one year of my life. Plus, to get in is not... easy. Not to mention how financially straining it would be for the fees, lodging and um, recreational activities (shopping).

Y'know, it's always been my dream to be an editor of a fashion magazine. Ok so I wanted to be a lawyer first but I deemed it too tough. But now, to think that I have to face these people in the workforce in my later life, I'm not so sure.

Many times I go, Jesus, my life is shit! And then remorse overwhelms me because I have no idea what a shitty life is like when people on the other side of the world are dying, eating tree bark and drinking horse pee. On the other hand, I'm so unhappy and what I'm doing is not fulfilling at all so what the fuck am I doing here?

If 2nd year is gonna be like this with the same people, I think I might actually drop out and think of an alternative. Sure, life is short, but much more the reason to live it on my terms.

Found a pair of the harness boots, a size bigger and I just bid an obscene amount of money for it.
I don't think they even cost that much on retail. I'm like paying for a pair of balenciaga ones instead man.

Just realized I don't have enough money for HongKong. Am mildly depressed now. Having a massive headache doesn't help either.

Down and out.

Can't wait for Friday to come!

Am heading to Hong Kong with F together with our families for CNY. Won't be our first year not celebrating it in Singapore. This time last year, we were in Korea and boy, was it cold. But still awesome. This year we are going to the shopping capital of asia!!!! Yeah I know there are other shopping countries, but HK in my opinion will have the best CNY atmosphere. Yum yum. And hopefully lots of Xiao Long Baos.

Ok if you're still reading by this point you should know that it's just gonna be another post depicting how incredibly random my mind works.

So I did a little research on shopping in HK a while back but didn't really put much thought into it. Yesterday though... I realised the trip was only a week away so i've to, y'know, get back to shopping mode!

And guess what I found.

Would love to bring that home...

Stop. Ok I know I obviously won't be able to buy a Juicy bus back home, but I just discovered there's TWO Juicy shops in HK! Is that like totally destiny/fate/karma or what!!!

Aweome possum. And in HK, there's a two-storey Christian Louboutin boutique.

I blanked out for about, 5 seconds when I read that. When I continued reading that they hold 40% off sa-

BOINK.

Seriously. I've been waiting for Juicy and Louboutin to open in Singapore for like what, YEARS? Annoying really, like I keep thinking I get to buy them in Singapore (as in, in their very own boutiques) and I keep getting disappointed. Shame on you Ngee Ann City!

And... in HK there's Harvey Nichols which stocks about every brand in the universe of coolness. I can finally get me some Acne jeans!!! Yay me!!!!!

And a Deer Dana tee (the Agy one!)

Woohoo!!!!!

Honestly, I have like, a million tabs on shopping right now it's insane. I don't even know how to arrange my shopping itinerary yet. With only around 24 hours in HK before we leave for Macau... I don't see how I'm gonna get it all covered. ):

Is it me, or does everyone get this? When I start shopping, nothing deters me. Really. I don't feel hungry, I don't feel thirsty. I mean of course in Singapore shopping isn't such a frenzy but when I go overseas my mind just clocks into timer mode and I walk faster, I thumb through racks faster, I even convert currencies faster. I move so fast it's like I'm running away from The Ice Age. At this kind of moments I just don't notice anything but my shopping.

To digress, I think I put on weight.

It's kind of weird when I have people (whom I haven't seen for ages) tell me I lost weight blah blah blah when I HAVE NOT. It's either a really smart people tool or you're blind. Ha ha. I mean, no girl on Earth will ever dislike hearing the golden words:

"Hey did you lose weight?"

But when you're feeling fat and clumsy it doesn't help at all. I haven't been on ANY diet, unless you count the MacDelivery diet, the maggi-mee 2 eggs at 3am supper diet, or the everyday don't exercise diet.

But now it's all going to change. I am going to go on a diet. Why? Because I am the most superficial and self-conscious person ever. I think the best time of our lives (girls) is now, when we can still lose weight easier then later on (think 10 years) and when it's still ok for us to exercise vigorously.

I want to look like this



I mean... I'm the same height as MK but she's so small and cute and everything. Speaking of which, the Sam Edelman boots which I saw from Rumi's is really kind of fabulous. But the one on ebay is 2 sizes bigger than what I usually wear... Should I just buy and stuff tissues in? But it's not cheap or anything like that so I don't want to limp in it or have it slip off when I walk. Bah... life's unfair.

I'm still thinking of which diet to go on.

x

The Ting Tings + Acid Wash Leggings + Shredded Tanks



Joan and Geraleine - I didn't get a photo with Marissa though

Joan went OMG and then:

Haha so cute we wore the same pair of sandals!!!


Wiley

Jules
Katie
I was all "Look baby she wore the same red booties she wore to the music awards!!"




Damn lots of ______ ):









Clothes!!

Acid Wash Leggings With Raw Hems

Did FOUR of these when I was in need of therapy. It's such a stress reliever seriously, because it's so fun and how these leggings turn out will depend entirely on your handiwork.
If there are a certain number of requests for it I'll open up a pre-order and you get to choose colors, if not I'll just sell them off cos I can't keep wearing them out daily :/

It looks like clouds on a lovely blue day doesn't it. Haha this was my first attempt, and then I got overzealous...
Mail flymoniker@gmail.com


But now I know how to get the best results! So don't worry ha ha I won't sell you ugly patchy stuff.

Shredded Tank

I did this long ago but never wore it out because I was being an ass and bought an XS from Cotton On and it's not the loose baggy fit I wanted. But if you wear it fitted or you're thinner than me (50% of population) then it'll look awesome. I'm kind of sad and reluctant about this cos it's my first and I like the unique pyramid shreds...

Interested mail me with your size, color, preferred shredded area
flymoniker@gmail.com

x
Mavis